Regrets, I had a few!..

Life is so much complicated sometimes. The how, what if and why question is always in our life. There is some situations that knocks us down. Since, I came to know what the real world I live in, I had a lot of question always. What if I just follow what I want when I was 17. What if I just ignore and don't follow what is going on that time. I wonder how where I ended up. In my minor age and grow up mostly without my parents around, I used to decide what I want. And then suddenly, in a blink of an eye it was change. The dream of a young person shattered when one of the most fearsome nightmare came to reality. Reality that I cannot ignore, because every time I wake up in the morning, I am in the same situation over and over again. I tried to change my lifestyle and tried my best to make it more meaningful. Its too difficult to pretend that you are happy while you are not. One thing that makes me happy is my two little angels. They are the most beautiful moments in my entire life. Even though I am down, I always have a reason to smile. I promised to myself to gave them a life that opposite of what I had. Those promises that I am not sure if I achieved it. If I really accomplished it. To raised a children alone as well as miles away from them is very difficult. At times, I just want to go back and stay in their side no matter how hard it is. But, what if I don't leave them, what is my life now? I regret that I leave them at their young age. But I guess, this is the best thing that I ever done. If I don't fight my  freedom, I will be stuck on that situation forever. I believe that God have a plan why I am here and not there. I had few best moments so far but I guess there is more storms to come.  Because those storms that I overcome already made me strong and courageous. It makes me stand on my own ground and fight my battle everyday.  I cry a lot, but it doesn't stop me to dream more. The regrets that I had in the past made me to decide what I want in the future.  Because along in my journey, I met quiet few people who helps me to be who I am now. People whom I feel, I am safe and will never let me fall again. Yes, I had few regrets, and those regrets are the reasons why I am careful now. I am trying my best to avoid doing bad decisions. I can't undone everything what I had in the past, but I know my future will be more fruitful if I just move on and forgive all the people who cause my suffering. Life doesn't stop because of few bad decisions.
I just closed the chapter of my life where bad moments are stored. And then write a new chapter which includes everything what is best. Of course, I can't do it in my own. With the help of Almighty God, I know I can do all things, I can achieve what my heart desires.

The Power of Letting Go...

Our life is not compose only by happiness and success all the time. There are times that we are on the top of the world. In those times, our world is full of gladness without thinking that one day, we are going to be in the bottom the next day. It seems like there is none stop of happiness and then when the problem strikes us, we can barely accept it.

Loss can be very difficult and you will have self pity and disappointment but you have to let it go and let GOD do His way.

There are some situation that we face that there are no logical explanation too. You have to be bold enough to say, I accept it and I have to let it go. There is no use of asking GOD why is this, and why is that. 

Dont put a question mark where GOD put a period. Move forward, because GOD make a new chapter in your life. Dont live in the self pity. Do yourself a favor. Turn the pages and move forward so that you can see the new chapter of your life.

If you think of the past, you will got stuck.

You have to quit mourning and move forward. There are things that we dont understand but one day it will make sense. If there is death, there is a new born, if there is a betrayal, there will be a new opportunities. In every loss there is a replacement.
Don't stop dreaming a new dream and prepare what GOD wants you to be...

Kung mahalaga sila, mahalaga ka rin!!

Kapag sumakay ka sa eroplano, ipapaliwanag ng crew kung ano ang mga dapat gawin. Lalo na sa paglagay ng oxygen mask kung sakali mang anong mangyari. "Unahin ang sarili na lagyan ng oxygen, bago tulungan ang iba".Ang katotohanan ng salitang ito ay hindi lamang sa loob ng eroplano pati na rin sa pang araw-araw na pamumuhay. Kailangang alagaan natin ang ating mga sarili upang may kakayanan tayo na alagaan ang iba. Kailangang ipakita mo sa sarili mo kung sino ka, bago mo maipakita sa iba kung sino ka nga talaga. Isipin mo na lang, kung wala ka, pano ka makapagbigay sa iba? Kapag bigay ka ng bigay at hindi mo iniisip ang sarili mo, magigising ka na lang na wala na palang natira sa iyo. Kung noong unang panahon, ang dahilan kung bakit marami ang nagkakasakit ay infection, ngayong panahon marami ang nagkakasakit ng  dahil sa stress. Hindi tayo nilikha ng Maykapal para ma stress at mapagod. Dahil kahit SYA, pagkatapos nya mailikha ang sanlibutan, nagpahinga rin sya. Kailan mo huling binigyang pansin ang sarili mo?
Tayong mga nasa abroad, halos lamang sa atin ang nasa isip ay trabaho. Ang kumita ng pera. Lumaki tayo sa kulturang "family oriented". Kaya kahit na may kanya kanya na tayong pamilya, hindi maiwasan na bigatin mo pa rin ang lahat. May asawa at wala, iisa lang, kapamilya mo sila. Lalo na at ikaw lang ang nasa abroad, lahat sila, kargo de konsensya. Kahit malayo pa ang sahod, kailangang magpadala na. Ang masaklap nito, kahit konti lang ang problema, ang kwento sobra. Parang hindi ba nila iniisip na naghihirap ka rin. Akala nila, napakalaki ng kinikita mo, na kaya mong ibigay lahat ng gusto nila.Kapag hindi mo sila napagbigyan, ang sama mo na. Kasi napakataas mo na raw, marami ka nang pera. Hindi ba nila naisip na kung marami ka nang pera, hindi ka magtityaga na magtrabaho pa? Ang sobrang tulong minsan sa ating mga kapamilya ang naging dahilan kung bakit naging tamad sila. Hindi masama ang tumulong, pero kung paulit ulit lang din naman ang dahilan at pangyayari, ay panahon na para ipamulat sa kanila na hindi madaling kumita ng pera. 
Kaya bago natin tulungan ang iba, bago natin ayusin ang buhay ng iba. Siguraduhin muna natin na tayo mismo, ang sarili natin ay ayos at alang problema. Dahil iisa lang ang buhay natin, binigay yan sa atin para alagaan at hindi para abusuhin. Kung mahalaga sila, mahalaga ka rin!..